| Allan Thompson |
This is my final blog entry from Rwanda: a chronicle of the long goodbye that has been the last couple of days. I knew I would be sad leaving Rwanda and I suppose exhaustion can make you even more emotional.
The other night I went out for a farewell dinner with my Canadian colleagues, Sylvia Thomson, Roger Bird and his wife Ann. (Sue Montgomery is to arrive today just after my departure). We were also joined by Alice Musabende, a journalism student and development worker who has been acting as the local fixer for our project. (We call Alice the African Queen). We had agreed to meet at the restaurant at the Credo Hotel, which boasts the only swimming pool in Butare. Next visit I will have to find time for a swim. I was the first to arrive and in the dark of early evening, I stood by the fence at the back of the hotel property, looking out over the deep gorge that separates the two high points in town. Atop the hill on the right is the National University of Rwanda. Across the valley, Butare’s Roman Catholic Cathedral commands the other hilltop. The air was full of two sounds, the call to prayer emanating from a mosque just down the way and the blare of the latest Radio Rwanda news bulletin, piped from a loud speaker by the restaurant bar. The others arrived just as I was getting nostalgic.
Over dinner, we shared a toast to the successful launch of our journalism teaching partnership, keeping our fingers crossed I will be able to secure funding to carry on with this project in the months to come. Then a cloudburst of much-needed rain sent us scurrying for cover. You know you have begun to settle down in a place when you are glad to see rain because you know the local farmers desperately need the precipitation.
The last couple of days before my departure have been a mad scramble. I had to make a quick side trip to Nairobi to fulfill a commitment to help with media training sessions organized by the Canadian High Commission. I got back to Rwanda yesterday afternoon and after the familiar two-hour drive from Kigali to Butare, stopped at home long enough to wash my face then went straight to my classroom in the little computer lab where my students were waiting for our last encounter. They were busily working on their final assignment for me, a piece of opinion writing. We didn’t have a lecture today. This was just about saying goodbye and it was much, much more difficult than I had anticipated. They gave me a present, a simple woodcarving and a tray with Rwanda written on it. But it was the card that just about did me in. After reading their handwritten messages I was quite simply at a loss for words and afraid that if I tried to say much, things would end in an embarrassing show of emotion. It touched me so deeply to read messages from students who lost their siblings or their parents in the genocide and wrote that they now regarded me as a brother. So instead of the kind of graceful speech Africans are accustomed to on such occasions, I simply thanked them for our time together and said goodbye. I went around the room to give every student a hug, caressing three times in the Rwandan way. And with the men, each embrace ended with us briefly touching our foreheads together, another traditional greeting. To be honest, by the end of it, I just had to gather up my things and leave. The sadness I felt when taking my leave was compounded by another factor. One of the students told me the class will be getting a bit of a holiday now. There is no one available to teach their next course, so they will simply have to wait until a teacher can be found.
In our short time together, we formed a kind of bond. And for all that there is good reason to doubt the future of journalism in Rwanda, the time I spent with these nine young people gave me some hope that their country will one day have a new generation of journalists.
The last word has to be a message to my students. Diane, Solange, Nicolas, Prosper, Egide, Charles, Sixbert, Edouard, Leon:
I am just about to leave your beautiful country for the long trip back to Canada. I wanted to say goodbye properly before my departure. My apologies, but during our class yesterday I simply couldn’t find the words to say goodbye. I know that here in Africa, people are accustomed to long, graceful speeches and kind words. But after reading the messages in the card you presented me with, I found myself speechless and quite frankly, I was afraid I would become too emotional if I went on any further, so I just had to leave.
Let me thank you for a wonderful time together. I learned a lot about your country, about each of you as individuals and about your generation. For that reason, I leave Rwanda hopeful that journalism has a better future in this country because of people like you. Do your best.
Thank you for the good times we had outside of the classroom and for making me feel so welcome. In a short time together, I have grown very fond of you and I will miss your company. I particularly enjoyed our trip to Maraba together. I know this may sound strange to you, but it was such a pleasure for me to be surrounded by so much joy, and enthusiasm and love of life. The world needs to learn more about the Rwandan spirit. Because of you, I am taking a bit of that Rwandan spirit away with me.
A la prochaine,
Allan
